Homecoming.

Had a dream about you last night, again.

All of my highs chool friends were at the gym, preparing things for the upcoming event that day. Homecoming. I thought your batch wouldn’t make it. But one by one, your friends are taking their seats. As the program was about to start, I left the gymnasium. Aching that I wouldn’t able to see you. I ran immediately to the nearest jeepney station. But as I sat near the jeepney’s door, my friends were looking at me. All giggling. You’re right there outside our jeepney, smiling and staring at me. I just didn’t know what to do. So I got out of the vehicle, ran back to the gym and you followed. Avoided every chance that you’ve given that moment just to talk. You’re just smiling. Taking every chance to get closer to me. It was awkward though. You’re the one chasing after me, but in reality, I WAS the one asking and begging for your attention. The next thing happened was incredibly weird. I jumped onto the platform of a train and immediately moved to get inside just to escape from you. I was wearing my high school uniform then. I could see you running. But you stop as you’ve seen the train moving very far from you. It hurt. A lot. That part of my dream is quite opposite from whatever happened to us or what’s been happening to us. You never chased after me. Never.

One day, you’ll realize that what you did was wrong. You let go of us just like that and never ever tried to fix things between us. It’s worth the risk, I’m telling you. But then, as time went so fast, I’ve been accepting the fact that we’re not meant to be. I guess. Two years, my dear. I’m still ranting these things about you. I tried to be perfect, because I was afraid that I might lose you. Even if it hurts so much, I never thought of letting you go before. I don’t want you to suffer that much, so I let you break this bond between us and let go of us. I am not holding you back right now. It’s just, when things get complicated between Me and Edwin, I always think of how happy we used to be. Memories and things we shared for years. Reviving me back to reality, that whatever we’ve been through, made me stronger, and the worst is yet to come.